Another Sleepless Night

Bill Finn's song from "In Trousers" has been smoldering in my brain since waking up (late) this morning.

I. Am. Exhausted.

Somewhere between 6:00pm and 1:00am my world got really shook up and I feel like I was on a skateboard hanging on to the back of the bus as it continued to pick up speed, barely hanging on.

Why do I insist on putting everyone else before myself? I have to start making decisions without asking everyone else what they want first. Everytime I take the initiative and someone is hurt or unhappy with me, I feel incredibly guilty. This is true in all aspects of my life.

I think I may have fucked up two really important things in my life last night.

Go, me.